So school has been good. im taking my basics at AC. its actually pretty fun. but ive been going crazy trying to keep up. So i know people that have kids, full time jobs and are going to school full time.. WHAT! how do you ever have time to do this? i dont understand how people like that eveen survive. I look up to them and admire them in sorts. Its pretty cool if you can organize your schedual to the point where its all getting done.. Amazing. I feel burdened working 30 hours a week and 4 classes. so props to those who have amazing motivation skills and supeer human powers.

If you are in this kind of situation.. how do you do it without breaking?

How do you decide what you want to go for in school,

Im soo lost... im going to amarillo college. I love it there. I enjoy my teachers, it makes me feel good just to be present in a productive place. But where do i stand. Of course being in school when you meet people their first question is  usually "Whats your major?" well general studies right now. I mean but there is nothing wong with not having made a decision on my  major.. i just dont know what career would be good for me. here are some careers that i have contemplated on over the years

Counseler...

i used to want to be a school counceler because i ended up spending alot of time in my councelers office in highschool. I mean i love being there for people. I love giving advice and i love to take care of others. I remember i was a very imbalanced teenager.  my mind and my life was chaotice.. i was so vulnerable and seceptible to pain. and did i mention sentative, and then you add low self esteme in the mix... its just not a good combination. soo therefor i needed someone to talk to. Maybe i could be that for someone.. but then i learned  that school counelers mostly deal with the scheduals of the students and all that boring shit.

I thought about being a social worker

I know i mentioned that im sentative... but it seems to me that a person would also have to be very hard.. if  i had to deal with children being aabused every day i would probably just to take a gun after the crazy parents that starve and scarr their children. I dont know if i would have the self control or even the emotionaly stability to deal with something like that on a daily basis.

An Art teacher

i love to paint and draw... but i couldnt just be an artist.... dont put pressure on me and expect me to make some eyecandy just because there is money to be made. art is more theraputic to me. WELL SOMETIMES IT CAN BE FRUSTRATING. but as an art teacher you get to assist people in manipulating a physical object into something with meaning and feeling. I like that... i tell people i want to be an art teacher and they say.... you wont make any money. I want to say.. FUCK YOU.... if it has become all about money to, you then your ignorance will break you.

I want a career that i will enjoy.. discarding the money as a lesser priorty... its more imortant to me the make an influence... and impact... mostly on the young generations of our society.

ANY SUGGESTIONS?

so i have learned some new things about being in my new apartment and with my new husband.

On the never ending task list, dishes... my mom always did the dishes.. no wooonder she was soo pissed off. and we had four people living in the house. then there is cooking.. i love cooking but dang it creates alot of dishes.. and cleaning, when there are only two people in the house its a little hard to blame your little sisters for the mess, for example.. i have noticed that whereever i am at, so it the clutter. the couch is where i do most of my homework so there is always a pile of books, paper, pencils, pens, an ashtray,and plenty of coffee cups oh and dont forget the remote. and last on the list is laundry... though my husband takes on the responsibility of laundry and trash... i have noticed that the bedroom looks like a laundry matt bomb went off.. well this is always how my room looked so i dont mind too terribly much.. its quite funny actually.

So things i found that are a have too when you have responsibilities in relationships and owning a place.. BUDGETING.. well before my money did not go to much use. but now i feel so grateful to have it and so accomplished that we are using it well. we are paid up on bills, ahead even. and going to work... nooo more calling in sick because i wanted to "HANG OUT" but yea i enjoy work more when i know that there is a productive purpose to it.  and communication... if jyme and i were not to communicate then we would not be able to pull any of this off. even though we bicker and argue sometimes, atleast we know where eachother stands.

P.s. oh and a random learning experience.. i was wondering why my spinich was so grainy.. but now i understand why mom said to wash the vegetables. oh well god made dirt and dirt dont hurt. just annoying..

so this is fun

Sherry (beloved)